Living Life To The Fullest

"It is crazy how certain little things can make you think about life. Make you realize that you might not be living your life to the fullest. And make you realize that you just need to live life because you never know when you won't be able to. Just look for the positive things in life and don't worry about the negative. Learn from mistakes, but never regret."-Cale Bloskas

I have posted this as my status on Facebook a few times in the last few months as different things in my life have reminded me of this. It might have been someone that i knew that died or maybe just thinking about how thankful I am that someone is in my life. I'm reminded every single day and sometimes several times in one day about just how short life is and how we never know how much time we have on this earth. Everyday I have a bracelet on that reads "Alex Marie Brown †12-29-91/11-10-09†". I'm constantly asked what my bracelet says and who Alex was and I am reminded and have the chance to tell them who she was. This just reminds me what I have to live life to the fullest and not take advantage of any opportunity. There has been a few people in my life that have made a huge impact in my life and died at an early age. This has left me to wonder if it really is true that the good really do die young...
I have always wanted more than anything to make an impact in peoples lives and when I'm gone to be remembered as a great person. I have always tried to never regret anything I have done because i honestly don't think I would be the person I am today if i would have not made the choices I have made. I have realized that everyone who is in my life is in it for a reason and the people that are not in my life are not meant to be there. I know of several people who have made a huge impact in my life and I know if they weren't in my life I would not be where I am today. I have a lot of interesting and crazy things happen to me and it seems like every week I have a new story of something that has happened to me that has inspired or humored me in someway. I will tell you about something that happened to me this past week at Op Camp.
As you might remember there is a kid that I talked about in an earlier blog about him being abused at home and how he told me about it last year at Op Camp. Well, this year I tried to make sure I was his counselor because I felt that I had a connection with him and thought I could make an impact in his life. It turns out that I spent a lot of one on one time with this kid over the week because of several experiences and ended up growing very close to him. This kid respected me and wanted to hang out with me as much as possible. For example, one morning I was putting up the flag as all the kids went into to eat and it took longer than it should have because I had a few difficulties. To my surprise when i came into the dining hall there was the kid I was talking about sitting on a bench waiting for me because he didn't want to eat or get in line without me. This inspired me and made me realize that I had in fact made an impact in a young kids life that is not as blessed as I am.
I was sent to this camp to make a difference in these kids life, but could it be that these kids were sent to the camp to also make an impact in my life? I honestly believe that everything happens for a reason and every person is in my life for a reason. People spend so much time worrying about little things in their life that we don't realize all the good we have in our lives. I think that if we focused on the good in life and the good in people in our lives we would live a much happier and fuller life!!! If everyone was not selfish, and actually thought about each other we could have a difference in the world. We live in a cutthroat world where you are suppose to do anything to be the best and look out for yourself. But i think that it should be the opposite and we should try to impact other peoples lives because we are in there life for a reason and they could end up having a bigger impact in our lives than we could ever expect. I have always believed that if i was faced with the chance to jump in front of a bullet for someone I would. Because not only would there be a better chance in both of us living because the chances of me only being injured would be greater but also, if I was to die i would be dying in the way that I would want to do it and be making a difference in several peoples lives and would die a hero.
I have been blessed with several people in my life that I have tried to be the best friend i could be. I have a friend who is abused that knows i will come pick them up anytime and have done it before. I have a friend who is slowly dying of a rare illness and I'm enjoying everyday as a gift that they are still in my life. And I have several friends who have been there when i needed them most and I have also been there for them. I would not change any of these people in my life for anything because of what I have been through because of them has taught me more than I would have ever learned on my own. I try to be the best person I can and be the best friend I can to the people in my life and I think that if the world had this mindset it would be a better world.
But some of the greatest leaders and thinkers that have walked the earth have thought this exact thing and it has not changed the world. But i believe that the world does not have to do this for me to have a better life. I think that if i try my best to do this I can make a difference not just in my life but in the lives of the people around me. I'm sorry if some of this blog jumps around i honestly just type what pops in the head as my hand hits the keys. Trust me this made a lot more sense in my head and sounded better. But that's okay maybe someone will benefit from this, please tell me any comments you have and God Bless!!!!